valley's diary!

so yesterday was ggraduation. Sweets graduated and i didn't even get to hug him, i am so devastated aouut it

Thank you for reading! - unicorn out ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა

I need to name this mystery person I like, hmm,,, lets call him Sweets! So Sweets is an amazing guy, he is so nice and although I question some of his choices,, he has got to be the only person i've ever liked/dated to make me feel so wanted,, He points out that I should take better care of myself and ways to do so, it is super cute, I love knowing that he cares when lowkey most people just ignore it (which is okay! never mad at someone for not noticing my poor habits) or tell me I need help ՞߹ - ߹՞. I noticed how much he was staring at me on Thursday and I truely don't think someone has ever looked at me with so much adoration/affection,, Its sososososooo sweet,, I mean he is just so sweet I don't know how people could not like him honestly (..◜ᴗ◝..)

I can only assume he likes me back with all this information and time i've spent thinking about how it all connects but, theres always a but.. hes a senior and hes graduating in like 5ish weeks.. It's crazy how out of all people I'm the one who falls for a senior when I dog on other people who have big relationship age gaps in high school..

I am a firm believer that if it's meant to be then it will be. whether that means we are visiting the area in 20 years and run into eachother or maybe we end up working the same job in 10 years who knows,, really wish it was right now though ૮ ◞ ̫ ◟ ྀིა

Thank you for reading this uhm.. whatever this is! - Unicorn out ໒ ྀི>֯ . <ྀི֯ ̥ ︣ა

So on Friday I went dress shopping! I got 2 new dresses, black and purple! They're both super cute and I love them so much! I think I'm going to wear the purple one to prom this year and the black one to either hoco or prom next year,, I also ended up getting some cute clothes and stuff so it was a pretty good trip and I'm very happy about what I got!

Going back to school this week was super hard for me.. I've slumped back into a bipolar depressive episode. I can barely pull myself out of bed and the only thing I've comfortably done is shower. Showering has always been an easy way to keep myself from bedrotting (literally).. I haven't been medicated in so long I have to go through a revaluation to get any antipsychotics. I am just hoping they don't think it's just depression again because I really didn't like the consequences of being on meds that wern't meant to help me... Anyways I'm hoping to talk to someone soon so I can get help and hopefully at the same time talk about my migranes getting worse.

On a better note next week i'll be eligible to compete for esports and I am super happy about that! Although I have been slowly losing interest in smash again.. I think thats just the depression talking though and I'm pushing through because I enjoy the people I am surrounded by those days of the week!

Thank you for reading this mess! - Unicorn out ꒰꧞ ˃ 𓈒 ׁ ⑅⠀ ˂ ꒱ྀི

Today has actually been a pretty good day,, But it was super hot out today like almost 90 degrees and my ac isn't working right now so I had like 3 standup fans on and the windows open,, It didn't help much but turns out we're gonna have a cold front here so it's 57 degrees out right now and it's so nice,,

Anyways I ended up cleaning my house today! My room is super clean and smells so good and I hope my animals don't ruin it immediately,, If they do I'm going to have to start closing my door everytime I'm not in it which really sucks because my very dependent cat likes to spend her time in there so shes away from everyone and I don't want to lock her in there all day so she can't get anything she needs because thet would just be crule.. But nonetheless I will end up figuring something out no matter what,,

I spent a good chuck of my day playing Dead By Daylight,, It was so much fun! I even got the Sinister Grace pack and I am so beyond happy because I've wanted it for so long, I just haven't wanted to spend the money on it but I'm glad I finally did,, The Krasue has got to be one of the sweetest killers I've ever seen played right besides Spirit,,! I love both of them so much and as a returning player who took a long break from the game, relearning with a new killer is super fun,, and yes I am a killer main,, I honestly haven't purchased a new survrivor except for now in the Sinister Grace pack (◞ ‸ ◟ㆀ) I just really don't like being killed I fear, I'm a bit of a sore loser ehhem but lets look past that(；′⌒ ')

Thank you for reading! - unicorn out \◟(,,>▽<,,)◞/

Today was a silly day! Kinda annoying though,, I got 15 assesments done and a huge test as well!! from what I know I passed all of them so thats super good, not sure about one class though, hopefully I did more than just pass so I can get my fiftyfive precent up :c I don't have to pass because I have all my history credits already and am still taking more but I don't want an F on my transscript, one is enough for me me thinks,, spent my whole day in my history teachers class working on everything though so I didn't get to do anything else today but it's a friday so thats amazing!

Now it's spring break!! I am so happy for spring break and a whole week off,, Gosh I need this so much,, School has been stressing me out so much especially since my grades aren't so well but I hopefully will let all that go this week and not worry or stress too much when I go back :p ,,

One thing I can't wait for is prom,, Last years was nice but I am hoping this year will be better,, The theme is casino so it's gonna be cool and I need to go dress shopping! I think I'm going to get something red or black but if I can't find anything then I'm going to default to green like I usually do because I usually look good in it and I don't care too much about being on theme because it's not a huge deal or anything to me :3c

Thank you for reading! - unicorn out ( ᵁ ᗜ ᵁ ) ✧

Today was a bad day, this week has been not so good honestly,, I've been stressed with note catchup so I can pass my assesments and people haven't really been so nice to me recently.. Honestly I'm ready for school to be out or at least spring break,, I usually come home and watch tv, recently while working on my website because it's my only comfort right now,, I feel like I'm losing everyone around me just as I'm starting to gain more friends and trust towards them... All I want to do is cry about it but if I do that then it's just going to hurt more sadly,,

Some good things have happened this week though,, I finally got to be friends with this nice person I like, I joined my schools esports team which is super cool and maybe it'll cheer me up some since i've been so down lately, and I even got some of my bad grades up, although I still have an F,, I am hoping spring break is better and when I go back to school I am feeling better,, I wonder if maybe I can get a therapist but that is a lot of stuff to juggle :c

Thank you for reading! - unicorn out ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა